What is happening? Why can’t I focus? Why won’t my heart stop beating so hard?Why won’t my eyes stop producing tears? Why is every noise a distraction?

The shots from the gun range. Six at a time.

Boom. Boom. Boom. Boom. Boom. Boom.

They pause. In the pause a door slams shut. The people are talking loudly. My soda, sitting next to me on my desk fizzes and pops. The trees tousle with one another in the wind.

My heart.

I can hear my heart. It’s beating. It's beating. Harder and harder for no reason. There's no threat. No adrenalin. No reason. But I can still hear it. Beating inside my chest. Shaking my rib cage. Vibrating up my spine. Rocking around in my skull. Stimulating my brain. Filling my ears.

Why is life a distraction? Why can’t I focus? What is happening?