“This is how it feels to be in love / This is life from above” I never really loved movies until I met you. I preferred books or TV shows, something where I could start and stop, leave and come back, never sitting still for long. You made me love the movies, the waiting in line for the usher to take our tickets, finding a favorite independent theater in Philly where we didn’t have to watch blockbusters, the conversations analyzing the dialogue on the drive back home. “The meaning of life doesn’t seem to shine like that screen”

I feel sunken into space, but it is the exact opposite of how “A Lot’s Gonna Change” makes me feel. When you first showed me “Movies,” it was so dark out, and we were keeping our eyes peeled for deer on the side of the road. I remember thinking “this is going to absolutely wreck me,” but I didn’t care at all, I was ready to love it how you loved it, like how you loved the movies. A choir of Natalies pleaded with me to let go of any present ties, to let go of time and feel bound instead by both the past and the future, an amalgamation of every moment of my life all adding up to nothing much at all. I feel so peaceful, and yet so so turbulent. There are so many feelings and words floating around in this space, I feel the cinematic thrill, I feel how she is building me up to break me down. God, this is going to absolutely wreck me. I’m so excited.

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