Learning how to play this song was so emotional, it still is emotional, whether I’m picking up my acoustic or electric. I wish Natalie and I were sitting in my backyard together in the middle of summer, harmonizing and allowing the music to carry us. This song is truly winning and losing, everything is falling apart and all I can do is hold on. “Look around / There’s nothing left to keep” I want to start over. I want to move out to Oregon or Washington or Utah and buy a yurt that will be my entire world, then I can hide from everything that’s falling apart. I don’t think Natalie wants me to be a coward, though. I think I might have to let go of everything but her. “It’s a wild time,” she whispers to me. I didn’t really need to be told though. This has always felt like a song that I’ve given myself. You gave me this album, but this one has always felt like mine. “Turn around it’s time for you to slowly / Let these changes make you more holy and true” I don’t want the changes to affect me, I just want to be holy and true. Natalie knows I can’t do this on my own, I need to let go. Letting go has never been a strong suit of mine, I have a Cancer sun. “Burning much more than ever before / Burning down the door” I have a burning door tattooed on my left arm, I thought that I had already burned down the door, I thought I was in the process of burning down the door, I don’t think I’ve burned a single door in my life. I love that this song is about me, I love that it feels like there is less of you here, I needed this one for just myself. Myself and Natalie, that is.

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