“Picture me better / I finally found the time to write you this letter” I almost can’t bring myself to listen to this song anymore. Natalie wrote this song for a friend that she lost, the friend lost themself, the friend is gone now. This feels like loss, in the best and worst way possible. It also feels like forgiveness, but I haven’t figured out how yet. When there is love, there is always loss. I lost you, but I don’t know if you’re lost forever. I know there is still love, I know I still love you. I don’t know if I’ve lost myself, I think there is still love left for me. I think I still love me. With the strings and the soft guitar, it feels like the saddest lullaby in the world. I feel like I’m being sung to sleep, which is good, because I’m so tired. “Waiting for the call from beyond / Waiting for something with meaning / To come through soon” At the end of it all, I think I’m still waiting for something to believe, I don’t know what I believe anymore. I’m patient though, I will stay and I will wait. Something with meaning will come through, I hope it does soon.

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